July 4th

It is July 4th and of course we went to a cook out and of course I ate way too much. I have been telling myself that oh tomorrow I will get back to the gym or oh tomorrow I will eat better. But the truth is tomorrow arrives and yet I do nothing. My life seems like it is full of tomorrow's or at least promises of them. I feel like I should be done now, I want to be done with the weight loss journey. I mean one would think that the loss of 75 pounds that I should be done. Alas, I am not done. Closer to the end goal, but still not done. I want so badly to reach my goal, but I defeat myself at each and every turn it seems. I guess that is just how it goes when you are trying to loose weight. You have very high periods and also very low. I have been in a rut for a good while and I am hoping that I will turn out of it soon. I will be changing work shifts next month. I will switch from 7-3:30 to 3-11:30. I am hoping that this will give me time to work out before I go to work. I have to be honest that I feel exhausted when I get off of work now even though I should force myself to go to the gym. Hopefully, this change will be just what I need to kick it back into gear and get things moving in the right direction again.